Okay, what can I say, kitties are cute.... especially since I just lost my dog.
But if my boyfriend wants a lizard can I get him a komodo dragon so it'll eat him? Just kidding, I would love to have a pet, and if it has to be scaly I suppose I will accept... as long as he cleans up after its messes... I am so not kidding about that.
That is all for today
Other than me killing you
August 08, 2009
August 07, 2009
Night Screams Be Still
My Dog died on Wednesday, I wasn't there to say goodbye...
It really hurt at first to realize she was gone for good...
And then it became night.
I left the house and everyone in it, they were fast asleep and the only light I left on was a candle.... For the dog who made my depression pain vanish.
I walked listening to the music I had recorded earlier that week, and realized it fit the grieving I was going through. But the night screamed be still.... listen to the silence on this full moon.
I turned off the player and listened, having stopped to sit on a swing set.
For the first time in over two years, I heard nothing.... no cars, no drunks, no shopping carts rattling full of bottles, and no people screaming, speaking, laughing, or crying.
I could breathe without having someone sharing my space and stilling my breathe away, and I could feel at rest. I was finally feeling the peace that I had been desperate to get for over two years, and it felt good. Skeena, Bright Eyes, where ever you are, I know I will never forget the silence we both were able to have on those nights at the house....
Just you and me by the fireplace.
It really hurt at first to realize she was gone for good...
And then it became night.
I left the house and everyone in it, they were fast asleep and the only light I left on was a candle.... For the dog who made my depression pain vanish.
I walked listening to the music I had recorded earlier that week, and realized it fit the grieving I was going through. But the night screamed be still.... listen to the silence on this full moon.
I turned off the player and listened, having stopped to sit on a swing set.
For the first time in over two years, I heard nothing.... no cars, no drunks, no shopping carts rattling full of bottles, and no people screaming, speaking, laughing, or crying.
I could breathe without having someone sharing my space and stilling my breathe away, and I could feel at rest. I was finally feeling the peace that I had been desperate to get for over two years, and it felt good. Skeena, Bright Eyes, where ever you are, I know I will never forget the silence we both were able to have on those nights at the house....
Just you and me by the fireplace.
August 04, 2009
So Is Anybody Out There Wanting To Die Today?
Hello my name is blue and I have somethings to say about myself....
I was brought up to believe the face some things are better off staying in the closet... Not that I listened to that statement, quite funny actually if you can believe some of the things I seen.
How many times have people asked me if I was dead? Oh several and when I have to reassure them I am alive they literally tell me they had wished me dead. I don't think I was that bad of a kid at school... but then maybe.
As for setting the school on fire... well I have to plead the fifth on that one, and oh! would you like to die today? I would be happy to point you in the right direction....
And so I am Blue... Hear me roar. No really... yes i have happy thoughts when I yell...
So Welcome to this strange world of mine with no job, weed sticking out of my ears and Rammestein blaring in my brain. I'm really happy... yes and killing you is even better than I thought....
Love Blue
- Anger management is not my forte
- Yes I am fully aware I have blue black hair
- No I did not wake up this way
- Please bug somebody else with your life
- Yes I am aware you think I am strange and unusual
- I don't care
I was brought up to believe the face some things are better off staying in the closet... Not that I listened to that statement, quite funny actually if you can believe some of the things I seen.
How many times have people asked me if I was dead? Oh several and when I have to reassure them I am alive they literally tell me they had wished me dead. I don't think I was that bad of a kid at school... but then maybe.
As for setting the school on fire... well I have to plead the fifth on that one, and oh! would you like to die today? I would be happy to point you in the right direction....
And so I am Blue... Hear me roar. No really... yes i have happy thoughts when I yell...
So Welcome to this strange world of mine with no job, weed sticking out of my ears and Rammestein blaring in my brain. I'm really happy... yes and killing you is even better than I thought....
Love Blue
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